I've been thinking all afternoon about how I'm going to write about this, how I'm going to describe how this feels.
It feels like, after everything that has been taken from me, something is being given back. Relief. Astonishment. Love, more love than I can say. I love her so much, and I was so sure I'd never see her again, alive at least, and every fear and doubt and dread lurking in the back of my mind that she was dead is gone. It's all gone. She's alive.
How is she alive?
You can worry about the hows later, you need to rest and enjoy her company.
ReplyDelete...but i can't shake the feeling that maybe she wasn't His real objective and this is only His way to fuck with your head